Q: Hey Monicha, do you ever want to get married again?
Me: Bahahahahaha……
Seriously though, a second marriage is pretty much the last thing on my mind right now.
Don’t get confused though, being a divorced person doesn’t automatically put me in a “bitter woman” category or the “destined to be alone” category. I place myself in the “I’m content in my life right now” category.
But NOTHING challenges the divorced heart more than being IN a wedding as a bridesmaid.
This weekend, I will watch my middle school bestie (yes, my friend of 25+ years) walk down the aisle and marry the love of her life. I have tears writing this. I could barely utter two sentences of an unscripted speech at the rehearsal dinner before tears starting streaming and my voice did that thing – that shaky, choked up thing.
*cue whole room crying*
Clearly I know how to get a party started. Also, HOW am I going to handle the dang wedding day?!
Why all the emotions?
Because love – true love – is a BEAUTIFUL, special sight to behold.
It’s evidence of a still-softened heart – one that still believes in love.
I don’t want to get all sappy, but y’all. Witnessing a love story evolve and blossom…if that doesn’t make you smile – check your heart. Don’t let the loss of love take control and leave you bitter and closed up. In the end, it damages you – and giving and receiving love is something we’re all worthy of.
So you can ask me that marriage question in five-year increments and my answer may never change. But I don’t think my feelings about love ever will either.
“Alexa, play ‘He Loves Me’ by Jill Scott”
*sappy sigh*